Been introspective lately, it sucks to find some old crap in your emotional basement and find that it’s gotten moldy and kinda unpleasant. The last two months seem to have lasted forever, maybe it’s my sleeping schedule but it kinda seems like twice the time. It’s nice that life is moving slowly right now but unfotunately that leads to my worst enemy–complacency. Things seem good, but they aren’t. To be pessimistic, I could eventually be in danger of losing financial stability very quickly and I haven’t come to terms with how real that is. I’ve never dealt with need, it’s just something that I’ve been fortunate enough to have escaped in my life thanks to my parents and my wonderful wife. Yep, I’m spoiled.

Basically, the issue that I’m dealing with now is motivation. I have it handled on a basic level when I’ve got a single task at hand and a finite time to get it done, multi-faceted tasks are bringing me down. There are several things that I’ve been working on with no particular deadline that are getting sidelined becasue I’m not making the time for them and that’s not fair to the projects and the people involved.

My emotional basement is due for a cleaning.